ivanafterall ☑️

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Cake day: June 20th, 2023

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  • It’s crazy when you realize, “oh, shit, they’re just people.” I don’t mean it in an insulting way. I had that experience, too. Travel certainly helps. It’s not even necessarily that you don’t believe that before, just maybe that you didn’t know or hadn’t even thought about it, because who can know everything. But then what was previously vague/unfamiliar words in sporadic headlines in the background is suddenly very real and personal, standing in front of you. It’s a gut punch.












  • I can share a personal anecdote that leads me to strongly disagree: the first/main time I took MDMA, I was walking along with my then-wife and had to suddenly just stop and hold onto something. A memory from childhood had just gone POP!

    It felt like when an ice cube gets stuck at the bottom of your glass, then bobs to the top, at some point. If we’re being technical about it, it was less “suddenly remembering” and more “suddenly remembering and contextualizing it all to realize how fucked up it was.” I could have recalled that the thing had happened, had someone randomly asked about it, for some reason. I just hadn’t thought about it in decades, and upon doing so, instantly realized my childhood narrative about it was way wrong and I’d been fed lies to cover-up really fucked up stuff.

    But even still-religious, still-conservative family members who would resent my representation of the details would not disagree with the details themselves. It 100% definitely happened and is very verifiable.